Char~Moo's StoRieS

Positive thoughts

2011-11-18T10:08:00.005+08:00

Recently into positive thoughts and self-motivation.

I have not been in the mood to work since i tendered... realised that i felt much more repugnant to this job as compared to the doubts of myself over my ability to do a sales job. It made me realise that i'm not someone who enjoys things coming up with SOPs and clarifying discrepancies.. etc.. I'm just not meticulous enough for an admin job. This is quite a huge revelation and understanding of myself actually because i always thought i was someone so quiet and timid... most suitable for admin job as i like to see things done properly and i thought i was meticulous enough... apparently not.

And so, i will accept that as something i need to improve on. To be more detailed and careful in my daily work and not keep assuming the easiest way out. To put much more effort and commitment into my new sales role, an ultimately to be recognised by others of my capabilities.

I am going to be more generous, selfless and think of others more.

I am going to be a BETTER person and create a BETTER life both physically and emotionally as i owe it to myself and my parents! Maybe i have not gone through extreme adversity but i don't need to go through that in order to wake up. I can learn from the situations i see around me and learn to cherish my time on this earth even more.

THERE IS BUT ONE FAILURE IN LIFE, AND THAT IS THE FAILURE TO TRY.

DON'T LET FEAR OF UNCERTAINTY BE THE STUMBLING BLOCK TO A GREATER LIFE EXPERIENCE!

I got a *new job!!

2011-11-08T15:22:00.002+08:00

Mad happy that Sigma accepted my job application!! It's almost like a childhood dream - okay schooldays dream to get into sigma! and the bonus is i can leave this horrible waste-of-time job i am in!!! glad that it was a short sabbatical... and it definitely made me look forward to working hard in my new job at Sigma as a sales specialist.

yes... after trying out an office position, i think i definitely prefer moving around in a sales job. It's actually not too bad... where you actually have some products to talk to people about.. not that there won't be cold calling and stuff.. but its must better then sitting in an aircon room the whole day and letting ur butt keep expanding =x

Been reviewing my economics textbook yesterday and i really enjoyed it.. to learn not passively through the book but actually being able to think like an economist at the end of the day - that's my goal!

Review of what i learnt yesterday which is oh-so applicable in everyday life. Life is made up of choices and it comes because of a scarcity in resources - time, budget... and so we have to think through what is the best choice to make and what is the opportunity cost that we have to sacrifice. Also, it is important to have a niche or specialise in something.. in this way, we can have a comparable advantage over others. last but not least, a trade will always lead to gains... in one form or another... thats why we are constantly interacting with people and trading everyday! =) Happy trading and hope i will learn more and be more mature as i go along! cheers and i shall write more consistently ;)

Thoughts

2011-10-12T02:20:00.002+08:00

Jus got the news from HR that i won't be getting the sales position afterall... actually i am very disappointed, since i've been quite psyched up ever since the walkabout the Dennis (the product specialist) where i actually felt damn good walking around the hospital and actually going into the operating theatre to witness a colon operation... tiring as it may be to have to walk around and stand for long hours... but i miss the sense of achievement or purpose of the things you need to do as a product specialist... 6 months into the role of business project executive and i have not found anything i liked about it... been complaining much more in these 6 months then in my 2.5yrs at 1st base. Job scope sucks... management sucks... just felt super bored and waste of time doing mundane things like filing and updating of excel spreadsheets everyday.

I need to know what i want to do, but i really don't know... just when i thought maybe i should go back to sales... they don't want me but its oki... i will find another one soon... but do i really want to go back? or should i still around for awhile longer... my feeling says to leave cos i bear too much negativity in this role... how???

On a lighter note, we finally chose our HDB on 7th Oct... was aiming for the ninth floor... but finally on the day of selection, it was taken and so we had to settle for the seventh floor. Quite excited about the location and looking forward to seeing the completed project! Really hope he can find a better paying job too so that we can afford better things for our house.. now i dont even dare dream about a wedding... and everytime i bring out a $$ issue... its seems so out of reach... super frustrated that i have to bear with it or keep thinking how to earn more and he seems to be stagnant... grrr........

FRUSTRATION!!!!!! Can't wait for 2011 to end and looking forward to a much better 2012 i hope!

Max's wedding + knocked out by an AK48 + 3 tequila shots

2011-01-09T22:36:00.004+08:00

Cheers to Max and Grace! and Cheers to a great New Year 2011!!

Attended Max's wedding last night at JB and it was very sweet and nice... had the urge to get married haha... but the logistics of the prep looks super daunting... bride was very pretty and looks like Fish leong! hahah.. Malaysia's hotel wedding is much more interesting than Singapore's! They have a wedding planner from the hotel that will actually plan programmes for you. We got to enjoy dance performances by their people and also a lady who sang very well. They also had a professional emcee to bring up the atmosphere of the place, not like singapore, have to find ur own friends to be emcee haha..

anyway had 4 glasses of red wine then, and after the wedding, decided to head to St James for clubbing!! oh my... jobi ordered for each of us an AK48 + 3 tequila shots... that did it... 2 songs later my head was spinning so fast and i vomited... there went the night... drunk... terrible feeling.. dun wanna try it again!

the culprit:

The company:

Goodbye to you..

2010-12-15T17:55:00.002+08:00

Sunday was the day i found out you had no plans for our future... Monday you left for work till thursday... good 4 days for me to think about us... more time to think about what i really want... and time to decide where to from here... i guess i can see a goodbye coming up... its not going to be easy... i feel a deep pain in my heart and my eyes tear up everytime i think about you... but this is the last straw... you just wasted 6 whole years of my life... i cannot accept that you had no plans at all... thank you for everything.. i hope i'll pull through this...

Random thoughts....

2010-11-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

Wow.. so fast it is mid-Nov already... been a long time since i blogged and i would like to pick it up again to brush up on my writing skills and express myself better with words...

Times flies so fast and it seems my linguistic ability seems to be deteriorating with my impatience increasing... i seem to not want to think through things so much, and it has caused me to become bad with words and expressing myself accurately and also slowing my thought process and limiting my ability to think thoroughly... i need to make my brain work!

Work has been ok, but i and quite certain of a career switch by next year... i would really like to try out something else that has a better career prospect.. i don't want to be a product specialist forever... should i try the job in logistics? or something related to chemistry? Maybe i should be more enthusiastic in looking for a job in the recycling field, related to chem haha.. Another goal would be to improve my memory drastically..

Just accompanied MQ to choose her wedding gowns for her photoshoot just now... hmm kind of looking forward to the day i can wear those gowns and take beautiful pictures too! but i don't think that day will come so soon judging from his luke warm response or even outright avoidance when i try to bridge this subject to him... haiz... wth... i really don't know what is he thinking? Though i know we are both not ready to take the plunge yet, but shouldn't we be discussing about it and have a rough dateline planned? i seriously don't wanna wait another 5 years man... after dating for so long... the spark is getting dimmer... oh no!! depressing... we don't take many pictures together any more, we don't go out dating much... now we just stay at home and watch tv or bring didi out with us... where have all the romantic moments gone?!??! well i guess we did went to fly kite together and marina barrage, washed the car together today.. at last!(after weeks of nagging...), went for an occasional movie... hmmm but an occasional sweet surprise would be nice... everytime i lament about that though, he will always bring out the past things that he has done which were not appreciated... is that an excuse to not plan anymore surprises then?? grr... sometimes its just so frustrating... i shall stop here bcos the more i think abt it the more upset i get... nite

one year on....

2010-05-17T02:03:00.002+08:00

i'm surprised my previous entry was so long ago and i was abt my job....
One year on, i'm still at the same job, having the same kind of feeling.. does that mean i have not grown up? But one year on, things are slightly different. I changed to a new area, new competitors start to pop up with sucker price wars, target increase drAstically.... seriously thinking of movin on after my 2-yr mark in Oct...maybe..

Been travelling to shanghai and chiangmai so far and going for IDT training in USA for 10 days next month.

well i wanted to write abt my frustrations with my job but i realise i would be repeating the same old story hence, i have decided to buck up and make the best of my time in this company.

Jobi said to me last friday: Be more observant. when u go anywhere and see something different, ask urself why this can be done there? Can the same thing be applied to singapore? wat can u learn from the situation?
sometimes i really admire his ability to analyse things and to be so logical in his thinking process.. was really impressed with his words and enjoy talking to him very much. Abt the price war, maybe it is really not wise to enter into a price war bcos it will hurt the business eventually. definitely hope the China people will screw up and the giam siap consumers will come back to us...

apart from that, really wan to try out a different job, a different environment, pick up trading, read more, remember more stuff, dun be too affected by people's opinion or judgement. i am who i want to be!!!

Pls buck up Charmaine! U are capable enuff to be more confident of urself!

Should i change job?

2009-02-16T15:31:00.002+08:00

I've been contemplating for awhile...
not that the current job is not good... just that there are so many days that i don't feel like working... so many days where i don't wanna see a customer. I dont mind meeting a customer if there is an agenda to attend to, but i don't like dropping by with nothing to talk about... jus visiting and see how is everything going .... some might like it, others find it disturbing... i personally find it irritating.... grrr...dun like it

I can't remember customer's names too... then not very nice cos i dun really know how to get market information too... .i dun deny it pays better then the normal kind of jobs that i can get, but how long and how far can i go if i keep feeling like not working most of the time?

However, how much better will i fare in another job? i know i dun like to do lab work, or maybe research... but i kinda miss doing chemistry now...afterall that was what i had studied the past 4 years.. and now it seems like a waste not practicing it when i see people busily doing lab work.

how how what should i do?? should i apply for a new job? or challenge myself to stay on this job and learn as much as possible... i know that i'm just lazy and plain denying trying hard and putting effort in this new job, but if i'm so unhappy 3 out of 5 days, even if it's not that difficult to hit the target, should i stay on??
Should i??? Who can give me an answer lei???

Photoshot at NbyN

2008-12-14T13:44:00.002+08:00

After 3+ hours and 50 shots, I only had 2 free pictures... enjoy =)

Ah Yat @ Jurong

2008-12-14T13:20:00.004+08:00

Hmmm was looking for ah yat's website to file a feedback on my unpleasant eating experience at their Jurong newly opened outlet, however couldn;t find one at all hence i decided complain here!

I'm a regular patron of Ah Yat at Turf city and love their seafood a lot! however, yesterday i went to the one the Jurong (near the birdpark) and found out that all the food that we ordered (the same as Turf City) tasted much lousier~! The only common thing between the two outlets are that both has quite lousy service.

The steam fish at Turf was okie except that the sauce was not as nice, the eel dish was lousy cos at Turf city you eels that are fried till a little crispy and then in nice Kong Pau style with Cashew nuts. In Jurong: Soft eel with smelly sauce and peanuts!!! Grrr.r........... Then the frog (fried with ginger and onions) was so-so only.... the crab made me super angray too lar... I love the creamy pumpkin crab at Turf city as it is very fragrant and the sauce is perfect! However when they brought out the crab at Jurong, i couldn't smell a thing.... the sauce colour and texture din look right too! Terrible terrible terrible.........The place was okie, but i hated that they have air-cons that blast cold air onto the table lar....... c'mmon lar... how many pple like their chinese food cold... can't the restaurant pple get this.. super irritating........we requested for a change of seat but they said no and rather turn off the air-con instead. okie lor....

In conclusion, i'm not going to the Jurong outlet to eat again! But then again, their standard has not been consistent... Hope the chef at Turf city stays there please!

2008-04-20T22:55:00.005+08:00

Its wierd... Everything is over at last!!!

FYP is finally over!!
NO more lab!
NO more thesis to worry abt!!
NO more presentation... and the last one sucked big time... thing i really made myself appear very stupid in front of the lecturers... but jus bcos they are smarter does not mean they can be corky wat!! so irritating... bleh them... idiots...

So.. why do i still have a nagging feeling.. no happy or carefree tat its over?

Maybe cos i haven been looking for a job...and too slack...nothing to do makes a person scared sometimes...haiz... where is my direction? wat is my goal in life?
I don't know.... who noes??? haiz.....

Anyway.... din felt tat it was last day of lect in NUS haha... everybody were busy taking photos...then i realised... lousy me hahah...

2008-04-10T23:28:00.001+08:00

Jus felt a bulk of relieve as i jus received my prof's email and he said it was okie...phew....

Yeh! I'm almost done with FYP!!! finally!!!

whining again...

2008-04-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

Yes... its time for another whining session....
Its so hot now....
My FYP is due on friday... yes yes yes!!!! can;t wait for it to be over and close this chapter of my life man... well at least some good thing came out of it... i made more good friends in chemistry this past year than the whole of last 3 years hahah surprising....

oki back to FYP. At least manage to get most of my report craped out.. think its a decent piece of work... but dunno lei... haiz... dun dare to think abt it.... k lar... no mood to blog again.... crazy mood swing.. ..watever...

2008-03-07T00:31:00.001+08:00

I hate myself
I hate the way i talk
I hate the way i feel so proud when theres nothing to be proud of
I hate to hear myself cos it always comes out like i'm trying to boast
I hate it I hate it
I should keep my mouth shut and start doing things that i can be proud of
Take the first step that is to not be lazy and procrastinating.
Thats it.

2008-03-05T00:24:00.002+08:00

Irritated! Frustrated! Grrr....
Irritated with my laziness and procrastination...
Feeling the pressure of FYP thesis since i havent wrote a single word
Worried about my other modules cos it feels like i havent been studying at all
Confused by what kind of job i want to apply and end up not applying for anything yet
Scared that i apply for job too late.
Wanna buy graduation gown but dun wanna keep it....
Mom and dad asking abt FYP
Apprehensive about life after graduation
Don't feel like talking to him
Wanna do lots of other things that are not related to my studies now
Basically jus irritated at myself for always feeling lost and confuse and feeling so helpless or coward to face things and procrastinating and dreading this feeling and regretting it.... arh!!! i dun wanna waste my time away!! Pls throw my tv and games away......

2008-02-19T23:05:00.001+08:00

Mummy's bdae

2008-01-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

Today is mommy's bDae!
Went to M Hotel in Tanjong Pagar to celebrate. We had the lunch buffet and surprisingly it was quite full even though it was a weekday afternoon.
The food was simply delicious!! For a person who dislikes raw food, i enjoyed the smoked salmon thoroughly cos it was not too salty and the sauce complemented the flavour very well! The sashimi and clam was very fresh too! The rest of the food was totally enjoyable as well with yummy tempura fried on the spot, flavourful dishes like the orange stewed duck and nice asparagus and smooth chicken texture of the chicken rice and okie cos the yummy chicken with mango sauce that was awesome but sadly we took the last 3 pieces and they didn't replenish it anymore.... the desserts were wonderful too! and the crab chowder soup left me wanting for more! even though the place was small and the choices were comparatively not so many, however if was just nice to taste all the flavorful food and not get too bloated.

Having been to this buffet, it makes places like sakura pale in comparison even though they have a much wider range of food that leaves you spoilt for choice. The food here is prepared quite exquisitely i would say and definitely worth the money. The buffet i had at *paris something (formerly ganghis khan) at takashimaya was really horrible... the standard of the food jus makes you feel that it is just prepared for the sake of serving the crowd... the chef does not put his heart into the food he makes... even simple things like fried nuggets was yucky.... don waste your money.... disappointment to eat at these kind of buffets that jus leaves you feeling bored and tired of the food even before you had your fill....

You might not noe wat is good buffet until you try the awesome ones!! so sometimes, do pamper urself and enjoy the buffets that hotels offer... they are way much better!!

~delighted diner =)

i love tis song =)

2008-01-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

i love tis song =)

yoga

2008-01-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

Had a really fun time with Huiru today! i went to true yoga with her to try out a hot yoga class... it was actually yoga done in a hot room of about 38-40oC. At first i was thinking i wont perspire cos i generally don't perspire. But after the yoga session, i was kinda wet... hahah some of the poses were rather difficult and i realised that my left side could coordinate better than my right... hmmm wierd. So not everything on the right is always better as i had assumed. Interesting.

We talked alot and laughed alot... hahah really amazing how we can just laugh so much together. I think its her infectious laughter hee... thanks girl for such a wonderful time! really love spending time with you lots!! hahah. We should really start trading our long overdue photos le lar.... till our next fun session, cheers!

great game nite

2008-01-20T03:15:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Andrew's house. Had a great time talking over a game of monopoly (yes! after so long i get to play this game again at last!!) yep. Baked some banana chocolate muffins for them and they liked it =) we talked about a lot of things. I am really touched by the care they showed me. cos i asked them out and they felt that i was not in a really good mood so even though they couldnt make it yesterday, they all made it today! thanks pals! really never thought we would become such good friends and care for each other so much. Yi Leng, Shiyin and Andrew Xiao, you are the Best!!!

hahah jus tot how i liked to see myself mentioned in others' blog (though it doesnt happen often), but sometimes i feel like a celebrity when being mention...hee... its like your presence is felt and remembered by friends which is a very sweet feeling.

alrighty... after a night of saying out some stupid things that have been nagging out, i should really move on and find my goal in life. yeah i will make it! i will!!!

2008-01-01T14:18:00.000+08:00

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love her voice. got 感动度!

Happy New Year~2008!!!

2008-01-01T13:04:00.000+08:00

yeah!! i got my first A+ for financial accounting!! Sweet!!

Happy that my FYP is half done.... time-wise... content... not sure.... watever... .yeah its the new year!!

Had a fun celebration at vivoct with MeiQiang, zibin and Pax... had a great time hehhe thanks to MQ aunty who brought a mat, we had a wonderful seat by the water and looking at the x'mas tree with nobody to block us in front!! oyeh hahah.... then played with sparkles but it was soooo smoky..... we smoked everyone... opps sorry......
then we decided to play in the water... but the last sparkler, MQ and her bf threw it in the air and zibin's sparkler flew towards the crowds.... shitz.... luckily the friend saw and pulled his friend away so nobody was hurt... but the police came =x they took down his particulars and gave him a verbal warning =x otherwise it was fun! except fireworks were a little disappointing......... oh well.... i'm still happy!! happy!! happy!!! can't wait for my trip to China with Ang HuiRu!!! hahah

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!

WOoHOoo!!!!

2007-11-28T17:58:00.000+08:00

Been thinking about my career again since i've been receiving some job advertisments from nus mail... however when i read all the requirements for the jobs, non seem to suit me... they are all looking for research based people... and the descriptions are like: independent, self motivated, strong passion/interest in doing research... blah blah....

i ask myself: am i that kind of person? i don't think so.... then how? even if i apply i also noe i wont get it.... then how? i also dunno... dunno what i really wanna do... i feel useless again as the sem draws to a close and i am one step closer to stepping into the working society. Wats it like for people who noe what they want in life? How did they know they want to do something? How come i dunno what i want?

In my fourth year, my passion for chemistry has diminished, studying accounting made me wanna do something business related but some online games gave me signs that i might not be up to it... i dun like to teach... or maybe i'm lazy... then all of a sudden 2 agencies called to ask me if i wanna take up tuition jobs... okie its good cos i need the money, if not i got no income... but the rate is low... haiz.... is this a sign that i should go into teaching afterall? i dunno... but i'm determined not to step into NIE at least not until i've worked in the outside world for a few years..... though i dunno wat i wanna do...

haiz... 还是走一步，看一步吧。。。

2007-11-14T17:32:00.000+08:00

FUCK OFF U IRRITATING UGLY STUPID SUCKY HORRIBLE WOMAN!

I HOPE U LOOSE UR VOICE AND GET SHOUTED AT FOR NO REASON COS U DUNNO WAT ITS LIKE AND U SHOULD EXPERIENCE WAT U DO TO OTHERS. HOPE NOTHING GOOD HAPPENS TO U. HOPE U FAIL UR EXAM AND HAVE TO RETAIN FOR 2 MORE YEARS. GO AND DIE AND I HOPE U GO CRAZY TOO!!!

Happy surprise

2007-11-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

Today Charlene gave me a butterfly ring!! hhaa out of nowhere... cos she went shopping, saw this and immediately thought of me so bought it for me.... wah so touched!!! i have always envied girl cliques where this sort of sweet things happen... thank you charlene for making me feel special!! love ya!!

she really is a great friend. Was really touched to get a sunflower and a card of encouragement when i jus broke up.... thanks alot girl! Really lucky to know you. Really.

2007-11-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

I Hate Groupwork, especially in NUS, especially with people of different faculty...

First it was the b*tch during the perfume and cosmetics project... now the FNA project..

why do i always get sucky groupmates when all i wanted was to pair up with new people and meet more people... .grrrr.... does it mean that all those who don have friends taking the same module simply have some attitude problem or something.... grrr

this shi*ty year 4 girl from engine was in charged of only 2 questions... and yet she gave me rubbish... jus calculations.... so has engine taught her how to calculate only.... can't even write some descriptions issit......
Haiz... i dunno how to describe her lar... she's just wierd.... and i don like talking to her...... can't wait to get this project over and done with... ARHHHHHHHH>>>!!!!!!!!!!!

let go...

2007-10-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

Today i went out with him again... i dunno what to do...

Feel like talking to someone... but dunno what to talk about and who to talk too...

Read through his letter again and felt very sad.... will i be able to meet another person who loves me like he does?

Seeing him sad jus now, i din noe what to do.... but i must be strong and stand my ground. I will get used to live without him right?

He will get better too right?

My eyes feel sour.... no mood.... no mood....

mending heart

2007-10-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

Breaking up is not easy.

I thought i didnt care... i thought i would be able to get over it easily. I was wrong.

Friends told me the i had expected it coming so i shouldn't feel so sad. Really?? for those who said that, i think you havent' been in a relationship before. Please don't say that to me. It makes me feel worse.

I miss him.... i long to see his sms.... i long to talk to him... yet i can't...

yes, even though i was the one who wanted the split... and i don't regret my decision... but it'll take some time for me to get back on my feet.... for my tears to stop rolling down everytime i think of him...

I need some time....

For those who were genuinely concerned about me. Thanks very much.
For those who are celebrating for me that i did it at last... well you don't have to show that you're happy for me... cos thats not what i need....

Really thanks my friends, for showing me all your concerns. I really appreciate it. Really.

Wonder how is he coping.... is he resisting the urge to call me jus like wat i'm going through right now?

I have to keep my distance though....at least for now..... we will still be good friends. I wish you all the best and to find happiness soon again =)

miss u....

A chapter of my love life closed

2007-10-18T09:24:00.000+08:00

We broked up amicably on 16th Oct.
Exactly 3yrs 04 months of sweet dating.
It was hard. It was sad. But i'll pull through.

He was really nice till the end of it. There was no argument, no unhappiness. It started with a misunderstanding that made me angry... then i was sad and started to think alot more... this was not what i want in future.... since i was sad, might as well let it be once and for all.... hence i told him what i thought.

At first he was reluctant.... kept saying he still loves me and that everything he did he always had me in mind. We did it over sms which was good. It gives us time to think through what we want. So at last he respected my decision as he did not want me to be hurt over and over again when this topic comes up. So like that, we broke up amicably.

I really wanna thank him for all the great memories and love he showered on me. Its been hard. but we'll manage through this period with each others help right.

I din feel like going to school the next day. Went out with him instead.

We went to the Totoise and Turtle museum in Chinese garden. It was a quiet and serence place. We had quite a lot of fun feeding the totoises and fishes. It was a nice outing together. There was no ackwardness. we jus went back to being good friends naturally. It was jus us but without the holding hands and hugging.

I'll miss your hugs dear, ur calls, ur smses, ur hand-made cards...... Take care and may both of us live happily and find happiness.

Irritated

2007-10-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'm irritated....
Not because its ur fault.... its me....
when will i have the courage to tell u to go our separate ways..... when???
i'm frustrated to keep thinking we still can go on.... no..... its not right....
when will you see that something is not right anymore..... when.....
Arhggg........

some updates on my lousy days....

2007-10-03T00:54:00.000+08:00

Happy things:

1) Kaixin and i had a nice dinner and chat on my bdae. Its really enjoyable to talk to her for so long all over again. I'm glad we still hold on strong to our friendship even though we've changed.... somehow cai ping got lost....

2) Weichang called me all the way from UK to wish me Happy Birthday!! and i mistook him for someone else =x so touched though =)

3) My friends at HSA celebrated my birthday for me at a KTV pub.... there was a small hiccup as they made our booking on the wrong day but all in all we still got to sing so it was not too bad. and they got me a very nice Addidas watch!

Sad things:

1) My stupid damn experiment failed at the last stage, even after repeating a second time. It took me 1 month to go that far.... Now i have to do all over from scratch again... grrrr

2) I broke a few glasswares over the past 3 days i was in lab.... first was my glass schlenk flask which busrt cos i pump too much Nitrogen in. The next day i broke the pump connection becos i forgot to clip it. It flew out due to pressure again and swing against the metal cabinet door and broke.... Today i broke a separating funnel cos i put it beside the sink to take a brush and it rolled into the sink and broke.... grrr....

3) The stupid person whom i'm pairing up with for the econs experiment is not cooperating....

4) Just feeling down......

Watched shoot-em-up jus now... its was a very exaggerating plot..... disappointing.....

Reminder to me

*Always look on the bright side of life!!!

birthday....

2007-09-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

Its my bdae... but nobody remembers... its one of the saddest birthdays le....

car scare

2007-09-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday while driving back to my grandfather's wake, met with a minor road accident =x

I wanted to go straight but was blocked by a car so when i was filtering out, a car came from being and i kinda scraped the side of his car a little. He then stopped his car at the left road shoulder but as i saw nothing was wrong with his car, i made a bad decision of driving off at the right lane and continueing on my way.... scarly at the traffic road junction, that man came out of his car and opened my car door:
" do you noe u hit my car"
me: "yes, i know"
*he shakes head
him:" you noe then why din u stop. i'm going to report to the police and say that you hit and run"

wah... hit and run leh!! i was then super scared lar... but there was nothing else i could do or say since i was in the wrong. so he copied my car plate and i continued on my journey.... then the first thing i did was to lock my door!! can you imagine he jus came up to my car and open my door leh!! if i was a guy he might have punched me already lar =x

then he kept following my car and at another road junction, he came out of his car again and this time he had to knock on my window cos i locked my door. he told me to stop by the roadside cos he wanted to take down my particulars...

then why taking down he kept saying i was very reckless... speeding all the way... not fit to be on the road.... hit and run.... better get me off the road for good... i know i was in the wrong so i din say anything.... he kept saying he was going to report police lar... my mom also dunno wat to do... he was with this family... then he say wat if my car hit the right side of his car hard how? his daughter is seating at the back... blar blar blar....

kinda freaked me out of driving for now....

outing with HSAers long time ago....

2007-08-29T10:46:00.001+08:00

Jus remembered the dinner outing we had to glass house... Really amazing that all 15 of us actually came even though some couldn't make it in time, they still came down to show face for awhile! i think this is wat OGs feel like ba...

that day i was experiencing poverty cos my wallet only had $6 so i decided to eat by myself at the PS foodcourt first then join them again later since the Fish and Co stuff was expensive... 1 hr later when i came back, they were still waiting for their food lor... almost 2hr then it came.... crazy! and they only compensated with a small pan of fries =x

can feel that without the common thing that bond us together - work at HSA, there were not as much things to talk... maybe that is why OGs fall apart after awhile too... but still happy that we are holding on and they are planning another outing... of cos 1 more gathering would be my birthday party!! i hope everyone can come =)

pics of our gathering:

Rainy days and FYP

2007-08-29T10:35:00.000+08:00

Its been 3 weeks since i started my FYP. Seriously, i still dunno the principles behind what i'm doing.... jus following the motion and instructions given. i'll be glad there is instructions though... i tink my mentor sometimes has mood swings too..... sometimes he'll be kind to tell me what to do, other times i ask him how?? he'll jus say 看着办 lor... and he's still forever mumbling, leading me to interprete him wrongly everytime! sometimes i can see that he is frustrated tooo but wat to do... he also dun wanna open his mouth.... haiz..... suddenly realise time will pass very fast then soon have to do presentation next sem... but i dun even noe anything then how to present? my supervisor keep saying dun worry he'll help me but until now i only saw him twice lar... he seldom come to lab also which is good and bad lar..

on a lighter note, i passed my NMR test and safety test! yay!!! haha cos those if fail will be quite ma lu =x been enjoying my financial acc class too. Making more friends in chemistry also albeit the guys i noe are all wierd.. but theres the power girls!! At least i feel i'm making an attempt to improve my social life haha.... classes are tiring though... till 8pm is really no joke... by the time i come home all i want is to be a couch potato or play some online games. dun really wanna entertain him but how can... though i noe he can feel it lar... but oh well..i'll jus leave it for the time being... dunno wat to do also....

i'm a full of dunnos girl...

Friends =)

2007-08-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

Today was my last day of the crash course tuition i gave... the student was really good to teach, obedient and willing to learn, her mom was also very very nice. At the end she even gave me extra $30 more than the actual fee!!! super happy!! haaha

After that went to HSA to have lunch with them... hee so happy to see them again! haha they chose to go to the Cantonment Police station to eat lar... the security was so strict it was quite scary... surprisingly Simon was nice enough to wait for me at the lobby to bring me up when the others were all happily eating upstairs already lar... smtimes (on rare occasions) he is nice lar...

and found out that the new guy in our attachment group likes Hui shan!! haha oh my god!! so unexpected.. cos he so quiet... din expect him to be so open abt his feelings lar! but i think its good lar... he's so daring eh! haa happy for the girl =)

can't wait for next friday....

happy!

2007-08-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

Met up with KL for lunch today... haha maybe too long never meet le... so happy to have lunch with him again keke.... maybe i was too stressed and dun feel like being alone... really happy to have friends like him and Andrew. Saw him today after school too haha... at last have a chance to talk after soo long keke.... update: he's attached! haha happy for him. really hope we can all meet up soon... really miss the days when we hanged out together after school.... miss u guys!!

Lost...

2007-08-02T12:36:00.000+08:00

I feel really lost now... dunno what do do...
Should i go to school to start on my FYP? but school is already starting next week... and im too lazy to go to school =x but i'm afraid it'll leave a bad impression of me... so how... i still decided to stay at home =x but then i really wanna go to school to read the FNA textbook to see if i wanna take it... the bidding points is 2000+ larr.... if only i can teleport....

Jus finished teaching tuition.. tmr last lesson... they are really nice people.. sometimes i really envy those kids who has mix parents cos they get to travel and study abroad and they seem more confident of themselves....

he left for hong kong today for 3 days.... hmmm din noe i'll miss him... yesterday we went out together then went to zouk at night cos i wanted to go dancing during mambo... haven been there for so long... the songs have changed... quite sucky cos i don noe those songs anyway... then it wasn't fun to go with him lar... pretty boring actually... next time i shall find some girlfriends to go...

really think we're not compatible anymore but how do i tell him.... i really don feel like carrying on anymore but why when he jus left for HK i start to miss him already... i think its because i'm too used to him being around all the time... so i think its a good opportunity to get used to life without him....

i dun wanna teach tuition liao... i dun wanna do FYP... i dun wanna grow up... i DUN!!!!!

then wat do i wAn? ....

Updates...

2007-07-30T23:22:00.000+08:00

Wow.. Been a long time since i blogged....

Been really busy after attachment with HSA cos rushing for lab reports all the way... until exams ended last saturday then i felt more relieved... my face is horrible though... cos of the stress build-up leading to the exam... then my FYP thing is also a bit messy... dunno whether to start or not... confusing... and it doesn't help that i keep bumping into my supervisor... opps.. but till now he's very nice and smiling... i hope he keeps it throughout the year man...

My exam din go as well as i would like to... left 13marks blank cos the first part took up too much time and so no time to finish... then i dunno why i kept making stupid mistakes.. and the mistakes keep popping into my head and making me fill very gek lar.... man i need the damn A lar.... haiz... *shakes head again...

Dunno what to expect for FYP man... 1 more week till reality hits... been really enjoying my few days of freedom from work and school... except for going to teach tuition, i can pretty much do what i like at least for a few days... hahah hopefully can finish reading Harry Potter 6 and 7 then borrow the last book hahah =P

I miss my HSA friends..... friday will be their last day le... dunno if will have gathering?

1 week of attachment

2007-05-20T14:58:00.000+08:00

Wow my first weekend after 1 week of attachment - my first attachment at HSA.
The first day was filled with anticipation and excitement, i couldn't sleep well haha and also cos i was worried i'll be late since i have to reach there at 8am... but then.. it turned out to be a boring day... met my other 10 fellow interns which was cool cos there was so many of us and we get along quite well =) but they we did nothing on the first day.... they jus put us in a conference room to read abt safety regulations and watch safety videos... felt super sleepy lar...

second day was none better... we knew a little bit of wat we would be doing, then we were given 2 days for reading up on journals and textbooks... boring.... then we all started playing Sudoku hahah

thurs was the busiest day where i learnt somethings =) learnt to wash apparatus which takes 5 freaking steps to clean lar... each batch takes 15 minutes to clean and i have 3 batches to clean lor...

so this weekend... i was super tired i had to replenish my sleep and i slept for 12hrs each... woh... preparing for tmr again...

Good News to share!

2007-04-19T12:52:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! I passed my Driving Test at last!!
I'm Officially a certified Professional Driver hahah =P
Though the TP still said " though u pass, don't think your driving is very good k... its average only... still must improve.." but watever, i like him all the same hahah... At last dont have to go back to that money sucking stupid BBDC le Hooray!! Kudos to my private instructor too, who was more zai then those who taught me at BBDC lor... and he very funny... he said if i was nervous, jus think of him dont think of bf of anybody else... haha so when i was really nervous, guess wat... i was really trying to remember what he looked like lar... aiyoh.... hahha

Oh my test car no. is 88 but i don't know the car no plate.... i got 12 points though hahha so if want to buy 4D can buy the number 8812 hahah =P

Okie back to studying... tmr is my first paper le... must get CAP 4.5!! Aim high!!!

Muacks to me hahah

Ended

2007-03-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

Everything ended at last....
-work during the IT show
-main parts of 3 projects
-Dinner n Dance (which wasn't fun at all =x)
-Chinese dance performance
-Dance Uncensored...

Somehow i think i made a wrong choice coming back to hall after i came back.... its not so fun anymore.. plus i become more anti-social and don interact with pple... makes it even more meaningless.... been like a horrible person lately... always critiscing pple i dunno why =x i don like it but then its like verbal diahrreo u know... it jus comes out or bad thoughts keep popping into my head... i hate it. I seriously don like it... feel like a shallow idiot who is equally lousy and has no right to comment on others but i still do... grrr

Dnd at Laguna Country Club was really a chore for me... though the food was not bad, but i wasn't full... to think i went there hungry and ate 2 bowls of chips lar!! then i dreaded the whole evening until it finally ended... why? cos i dunno pple... so keep sitting there like a dummy.... its not a very nice feeling noe... + i din feel pretty that day too... haiz...

The saving grace was the KTV session that night though... sang till 4am lar!! and Fen was super funny! he is so talented!! He's a mauritian but he could sing chinese songs really well and even cantonese too!! and he kept making us laugh with all his funny actions and moves hahah thanks to him there was the atmosphere! haha... .Melia and Sharon came too! so we sang quite a number or english songs which were quite fun...

The only thing... i don have a camera... and getting pple to send u photos is such a chore man.... i hate it!! I hate asking pple for favours... i hate not being the best... i hate being lazy and lousy... oh man i hate this year.... i hope i can fast-forward time to next year man....

hitting back to my notes after all my childish complaints... haiz... i hate myself... where did all my esteem and self-confidence go man....

Cows this year.. .Beware...

2007-03-03T13:12:00.000+08:00

Let me share with you some cow words of caution:
this year, the ox's luck is not very good so beware! i'm feeling the effects already =x
look at this...

And i missed out alot last night... my dance friends went clubbing then they drank alot and had lots of fun lor.. haiz.. stupid me got stomach cramps and super sleepy so din go... argh!!!!!

sch re-open after long holiday...

2007-02-26T20:26:00.000+08:00

~The new ferrari at my house. Super chio right?!!

Had a rough day today... so demoralised....
The chinese new year week went past so fast... din even study half of what i wanted to and its a new week again... =x Had practical today... i tot inorganic would be better then organic... wrong! It was so stressful lor... everybody on my bench did so fast... all so zai... and i had to wait so long for my apparatus to dry... argh!! nevermind... it refuse to dry and when i opened the oven, it rolled out and broke lar.. broke 2 somemore =x haiz... so sh*ty...grrr.... Then i went to do my UV spectro and came out forgot to wear my goggles...kena caught by the proff... so suai right... i was wearing the whole day lor.. then towards the end, going to pack up liao then bamm! Sucks lar... then my results were also very out... in the end have to do it again next week.... oh my god! tell me lar... why i so suai.........

Yesterday went to Wen Hui's house also din have a good time... its also the first time i went to someone's house for steamboat and CNY celebration then in the end must pay $$ one lor... its not Wen Hui's fault... jus some "act smart" person who thinks that we should not go to somebody's house to eat for free and still get ang poh.... come on lar.. its CNY leh... i think paying for ur meal is an insult to the family lar... WTH... din really have a good time too... though i knew most of the people there, but somehow i felt sad... cos KL forgot abt me... maybe think i don belong to this clik of friends or got sick of calling me so i don even noe if i was invited or not... anyway i promised CP i'll go so in the end i thick skin and jus went lor.. but jus felt a little wierd... not left out or anything... but jus not fun lor... maybe its me lar... luckily there was CP there and Jason too... haiz.... wat happen to lasting friendships..... even Jason is also drifting further... though he calls me and talks to me... but mostly he asks me things like wat movies are nice, where to get wat kind of present for his gf and stuff... helping his gf by getting pple to help her do survey.... i don feel like i'm remembered as a friend, rather somebody to help him help his gf lor... i'm so sick of that... so much so that i dont even wanna talk to him on the phone anymore...

maybe i'm having problems myself... always looking at pple and laughing behind their backs, thinking abt nasty or sarcastic thoughts....Karma! i must go to the temple to pray for forgiveness and hope my suai-ness will be gone!!

Happy tot to end the post~! Tot i would be having dinner alone then i saw Sharon and Fen jus starting to eat so i dont have to eat anymore yeah! Then don look so lonely anymore also....

Come to think of it... i have been sick very frequently this past month... sore throat, cough, fever twice in a month, etc.... oh my god... i was never that weak! i think it must be breathing in all the horrible stuff from the chem lab and dehydrating when doing practicals cos u'll jus forget to eat and drink once u start at 10am... all the way until 5 plus lor.... I Dont wanna work in the Lab next time!!!!! Argh......

CNY at Yi leng's house... super shiok! The steamboat got 2 cans of abalone and lots of scallops and even sea cucumber lor!

demoralised....

2007-02-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

Had a test yesterday.... sucks... there was negative marking and i realise i made so many mistakes. Really demoralised =x and then my tuition kid keeps changing the time slot... so irritating... should i jus said i wasn't free today then no need to go le=x

lots of work left undone and piling up.... slacking too much but no mood to study... then dance is also taking up alot of time and the dance steps are not very fun... so sian.... wat is happening?!?

he bought me dim sum and ice-cream yesterday. It was yummy! but why theres no special feeling anymore?? am i too tired or is something really going wrong....?????

i hate my laziness, i hate my stupidness, i hate my rashness, is there anything i like abt myself?? not at the moment.....

haiz.....

sick and upset...

2007-02-05T19:25:00.000+08:00

I'm sick... for 3 days... chinese doc said i did not drink enough water... now i'm feeling pain in both my kidneys, feel like vomitting after drinking water or eating...and constantly feeling hungry but no appetite to eat... its terrible!

I feel miserable too! ... lab sucked today... didn't even know wat i was doing =x and i failed my driving test again.... why is everything not going well for me... arh!!! why!!!! ggRRRRRRR

Bikes!!

2006-10-30T03:45:00.000+08:00

We bought bicycles!! for quite cheap too! and so we rode our way to the top of the hill overlooking the city skyline and the bow river... the sun was setting and the moon was up. It was beautiful!! who needs the calgary tower now hahah =P

U of Calgary in September

2006-10-30T03:40:00.000+08:00

University of Calgary... nice lovely summer feel =)

~ me and Dannie enjoying the sun and cool grass

My Birthday!!

2006-09-26T14:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night my roommates gave me a surprise birthday celebration!! Haha I was super shocked cos it was least expected lor… I was just lazing in my room watching a show, unaware of what was going on outside… then at about 9 my roommate knocked on my door and ask me to go out… I thought it was weird cause she always jus knock and come in but I didn’t think much… then when I open the door…. Ta da!!.... the whole place was pitch dark and all 3 other roommates + Singaporean and her roommate were standing outside my room, carrying a cake and a torch, singing a birthday song to me!! Oh my god!!! Hahah they din have candles so they substitute it with a torch keke… They even decorated the living room with balloons lor!!! And they gave me a card… so sweet right… I was so touched and shocked lar!! Haha but really very happy keke…

~thanks so much babes!

~presents =)

Ice-skating fun!

2006-09-11T08:08:00.000+08:00

today was a happy day! went ice-skating with my friend Aurora and Xuexiang and the Olympics Oval in school... the place was huge and we had lots of fun skating together =) Aurora felled twice, once caused by a guy who skated recklessly... the kids there were super good! and they enjoyed falling down, haha... they skate really fast and very good, doing some stunts to show off sometimes...

we tried using the cage thing to skate and it was actually quite useful haha... i could skate much faster using that cos i was not so afraid of falling haha... had a really great time!

Then there was a floor meeting jus now... and they had this "pilata" or something where u use a stick to hit an object, break it and sweets will come out... the sweets were for good luck for the new semester =) hee it was okie..

trip to museum

2006-08-29T14:28:00.000+08:00

Today i went to the museum with my china friend and it was great, the museum was actually very interesting with a lot of war stuff like how they fought, what weapon they use, their armour... i think u will like it lor.. since u like war stuff hahah... but very sad one lor cos pple always get wounded or killed =x

there was also and african exhibition and greek stuff in the 4 storey museum... din have time to look through all of them... quite wasted =x

din eat the whole day so i was super hungry.... went to the supermarket and bought milk!! yeh i was so happy hahah and eggs too!! but i came back to cook macaroni with cheese and finish off my brocolli and added some ham... looks very nice but taste okie lar...

~pic of my dinner hahah =P

had dinner with my italian friend today and it was nice... i like her... she's so warm and nice...

had a fun day at Calgary

2006-08-27T13:04:00.000+08:00

today was fun =)

Got up early in the morning and helped Xue Xiang moved her things into her new rented room. It was very nice and cosy... wish i had rented a room too.. but then i think living in a hostel in sch would be more exciting with more pple arnd... not so lonely... but her room is so nice, with bed, pillows and comfortal provided, laundry, tv, wireless internet... everything... wow!!

Then we went shopping at the mall and went to the garden at the top of the mall called Debonair Gardens, nice name right! and it was a very nice garden too!

~nice place to hold a wedding =)

Met up with my roommate (from Italy) in the dorm... headed to chinatown where they had a fair going on... oh i miss the smell of chinese food... its nice to recognise foodstuff in the market like water chestnuts, yam and dried shrimp... hehe now i have new places to go for marketing ahah...

~Chinatown

then we walked to Prince's Island where they had a latino fair but had to pay entrance fee so we didn't go in... walked arnd till 6pm, met up with another friend from germany to have dinner at the old speghetti house... the food was a little disappointing though, nevertheless it was a proper meal.. and i had soup!! i miss soup... sat there and talked abt the difference in culture in our different countries... it was very interesting =)

~ at Prince's Island with Aurora (the italian)

~Xue Xiang, me and Aurora

~dinner place

~yummy bread?!?..... not too bad =0

and i bought a phone card today!! hee called pax and my mom =) so happy to hear their voice!

HAte IT!!!!

2006-08-26T09:16:00.000+08:00

Who said exchange was fun.....grrrr

Feel so miserable and lonely now... i couldn't get the chemistry modules i need... this means that i only have 1 chemistry module and i have to take 5 more when i go back =x shitz... the department of chemistry said that my modules only fit half of their prerequisites so they cannot grant me the modules i wanna take =x and i tot that NUS was quite popular but then it seems like many pple have never heard of NUS nor have they heard of Singapore... abit sad actually... cos i tot exchange students might get some special treatment, like those i received when we went to Thailand or China for immersion programmes... but thats not the case lor... exchange students are like 2nd class citizens.... and it doesn't feel good to be a one...

How?? why am i here??? grrrr and the university is not very nice lor... fall short of what i expected... its smaller than NUS, there's only 1 canteen and i don noe wat to do now...

I have to accept that module: which is an organic chem module... shitz... and i'm bad at organic chem stuff... argh!!! how??? and my txtbooks..... i can't use them now... might even need to send my org chem one over...

i hate it here... i wanna go home!! i miss my family and friends and pax!! i miss the comfort of living in a familiar place.... i hate to orientate myself abt the uni all over again... i wanna go HOME!!!!!

i miss home

2006-08-25T11:55:00.000+08:00

Been in Canada for 12 days now... my aunty jus left for singapore so i'm left here all alone for the next 4 months... i miss home!!! so sad now... read my mom and pax's email and was very happy but miss them so much also... drop a few tears lor...

But zhiming drew me this on msn: haha so sweet right... good muscle-control skills? haha...

Vancouver tour

2006-08-23T10:19:00.000+08:00

Harlo Canada!!

Day 1: Arrival at Vancouver
Reached Vancouver at 11+ in the morning, but by the time we got by customs and got our bags, it was almost 2pm. Lots of Japanese were going to Canada for holiday… hmm don’t know why. Took a cab to downtown and check-in at Hostelling International – downtown central.
Went to the waterfront information about 10 buildings down and saw the Canada Place. Took a seabus over to Lonsdale Quay, then changed to a bus and took a gondola up to Grouse Mountain. On top were 2 grizzly bears kept in captivity and at night, there was a spectacular night view of the city.

~The HI with 4 pple sharing...

Canada Place

The Grizzlys'
View from Grouse Mountain..

Fireworks

2006-08-16T17:10:00.000+08:00

Last fri, Pax gave me a very big surprise =) We wanted to go watch the fireworks at esplanade together b4 i left on sun... so in the afternoon, we did our photo project *still under construction then we went to..... Equinox @ stanford raffles!!!

~view of city from the 70th storey

Wowo... he actually booked a table there for dinner and it was super fine dining on the 70th floor of the hotel. He ordered the fireworks special package and we got the best seat in the restaurant, with a superb view of the esplanade down below and the FIreworks!!!

~the menu

~yummy food decorated nicely

~A different glass of wine for a different food!

~Thanks dear for giving me such a wonderful surprise and making the night so special!

*sorry no fireworks pic cos i took video =x

2006-08-09T11:25:00.000+08:00

Had a final presentation for the China Immersion Programme (CHIP) yesterday. Had to wake up super early cos it started at 830am. I only had to do the clicking while xinyi did my part of the presentation cos i did it during the rehersal haha =P. Anyway the presentation was not bad and Proff Li gave a super hilarious talk with all the pictures and captions he made... haha... he prepared 131 pages of word doc for a 10mins talk...but it was those few words on each page kind lar... haha... got xinyi's sleepy face while we were listening to a talk at an industrial park, and me, si Qing and isabelle trying to immitate the models after a fashion show... but i don't have the pics so can't show it here =x

One of the proff said something that was really true...wat did i learn going for this trip? well i guess the industry visits did give me an idea of what it was like, the presentation we did also made me aware of the chemical studies system in China and appreciate its difference to our own system. But i guess the most important and crucial part of the whole trip was the friendship forged and contacts made... I really din understand how important it was for networking and keeping contacts but trust me, it is Very Important!

After the trip, we got to know 2 chemistry professors better and they got to know us to, which is something not easy if you're jus a studying student. This makes it easier for me when i need recommendation letters or work with them for my FYP... haha at least they will find it harder to reject us too since they kind of know us liao heehee... Then got to know more chemistry mates too hahha makes going to lectures more fun liao.. not so lonely anymore. Need to ask questions or borrow lab report or anything also easier keke =P Hopefully i'll remember this and make as many friends as possible in CAnadA!!!

short tot

2006-08-05T11:26:00.000+08:00

Went for dinner with my sec classmates yesterday... the turn-out was only 6 ppl but the combi was quite wierd: Lydia, KL, TY, Kim Hau, Zhong Kai and me. But the dinner was alright.. talked about uni stuff since the boys were jus entering uni... haha reminded me jus how lost i was back then.... wow 2 years ago lor!!!

Went out with Jason for a spin later... talk abt r/s stuff again... made me unsure wat i want again everytime i think abt it... haiz...

Pulau Redang!

2006-08-01T10:05:00.000+08:00

Hello Redang~!
-the beach

Welcome to the Underwater Paradise!

~the naughty Moray eel

~Honey, the salt water is Numbing my Gums!!!

~the Christmas tree. Pretty colourful eh~

Bye Redang~~ See U again!!!

Kelantan!

2006-07-31T17:09:00.000+08:00

Day one.... on the 12hr train ride to Tanah Merah station in Kelantan...luckily we got a sleeper =) There was a psycho uncle who boarded the train and slept above my a-ma... he keep staring at us lor... idiot... wanna give him slap lor... stare wat stare... bleh!

Day two... Stayed at a relative's house for a few days...

~The two boys we stayed with... naughty but cute and endearing in their own ways =)

Day Four... @Kota Bahru
~Went to the Malay Food Centre to buy dinner... Yummy!! Look at all the colourful cakes and not to mention, they have fabulous nasi .... and Ayam Percik!!! Definitely not to be missed!

~Caught my A-ma smoking haha... classic pic eh!

~Pax: the diligent helper... caught helping my grandma pluck and process the little chilies for storage

~Day six... leaving Kelantan for a 2hr ride to Terangganu. Catch the boat and off we go to Pulau Redang!! ...Yahoo!

Happy Day!

2006-07-16T01:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i spent the whole day at home baking chocolate chip cookies with Jason to help him woo a girl.... wow we baked from 11am to 5pm. Luckily the cookies turned out very nice actually haha... after a few tries though keke...

Then i brought some to Paxson for him to try hahha... he said it tasted like the ones at Famous Amos lol... then he said he wanted to bring it home and put it in a container so that he can eat it at night hahah...

We wanted to walk to Allson Hotel to have dinner at the coffeeshop beside but we got lost and walked a long way to reach there... by that time he was perspiring profusely again so we decided to have Penang buffet at the hotel instead... the food was so-so only lar... i think the buffet at Pheonix Hotel is much better! but the service there was quite good though...

Then we went shopping around cos we were so full... he bought a long sleeve shirt and a pair of berms. The long sleeve shirt look really good on him! heehee and he buy clothes really fast.... guys... see... looks okie... buy.... so fast lor... haha but it feels good to buy things to prove that you had a fruitful shopping trip la haha.. and the shirt was quite cheap also... wanted to ask the lao ban niang for more discount but she only gave $2 discount... nvm lar better then nothing... =)

trip to Sci Centre

2006-07-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to science centre with dear cos Cai Ping was working at the dinosaur exhibition then she say can sneak us in so we went lor... hee hee had a very fun time there with dear, playing the little science stuff with dear, seeing him cringe when he saw those crippy crawlies hahah so cute =)

Then we watched the omni max show about T-rex... quite boring lor... not as exciting as i remembered how omni-max shows were suppose to be... hee then dear abit scared of heights and the theartre was 5-storeys high so he also abit scared scared hahah so cute... opps i sound abit sadistic... arh nvm keke....

Then we went to the dinosaur exhibition... it cost $10 leh... but i don think it's worth it lor... cos the exhibition was quite small and dear said the layout was no good cos one u go in... its like everything is displayed to you so its kind of messy and no mystery... but cai ping gave us some educational talk abt the dinos and it was quite interesting lar =) then she wanted to sneak us in on the virtual ride but that idiot malay guy don't allow... boo hoo... was so disappointed... went to take the one at the omni-theatre... cost $4 leh but it was not as fun as i remembered... oh well... maybe i have grown out of it hahha.... like real....

the we went to see the tree house at the ecogarden... hee there was a pail and pulley system on top of the tree house and i surprised dear with a nice card i brought hahha... didn't expect to give it to him like tat but it was a very nice setting and just nice i had the card with me so i wrote a little msg and gave it to him lor ... keke ... i noe.. so sweet right... hahah i think so too!! hahahha

~Dino eggs.

~I'm fighting the dinosaur... can't you see!!

2006-07-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

Wow!! Yesterday night went out with my mommy daddy and sis to Turf City to have dinner. Hahah when to the UniQue Seafood centre then realise its actually a wholesale place that supplies the seafood to the 3 restaurants there... hee we selected the Malaysian style cooking restaurant... the other 2 were Hong Kong style and Local style =)

Hee we ordered Bamboo clams, Steam Stonefish!!! Yes, i saw stonefish and it realli looks like a stone... you can never tell it if you're in the sea lor.... super stony hahah.... then we had toufu and Marmite crab!!! yummy yum yum!! heehee

2nd China holiday Trip

2006-06-28T15:22:00.000+08:00

Last week i went to China once again... after being back for just one week. This time however, its with my parents on a family holiday to Guilin and Yangshuo to enjoy the scenery. Oh man.... it was one of the worse holiday trips. Firstly, the tour people were not very enthusiastic kind of friendly kind.... most were quite selfish and quiet people... thats why we were seated at the last row of the bus throughout the journey = bumpy uncomfortable rides for 8 whole days.

Then the scenic spots were super out-of-the-way kind.... the shortest was a 2.5hour ride in and 2.5hr ride back.... but the worse was the 5hr ride in and 5hr ride back just to see a waterfall for 1hr. Luckily the waterfall was quite majestic as there was a lot of water. Can you imagine the tour groups b4 us who travelled all the way there jus to see a stream of water flowing down as it was not raining and there was not enough water... or those who were there last week where it kept raining heavily preventing them from watching some open air cultural show (talk abt that later)... the travel time was jus too much.... and uncomfortable... worse still there was this little girl who was stuck to us and kept joining us at the back row, making it more sqeezy and no space to sleep at all.... grrr..... what more with those freaking morning call hours ranging from 5.15am to 7am which was the latest.... and everyday we reach the hotel at 9+... my god... u can imagine how tiring this trip was man.....

Then we paid extra $100 for optional tour which supposedly had 5 segments - 1. famous ballet cum aerobics display, 2. open-air mass display of a re-enactment of a very popular show last time - "liu san jie", 3. see a bird used to catch fish for the fishermen, 4. night scenery of Guilin and 5. a full body massage complementary of the optional tour.
The famous ballet cus aerobics display was ok only... they had very nice costumes though. The highlight was their toilet actually ahah... boasted to be 6 stars as there was alot of tv screens so that you won't miss wats goin on while you're in the loo.... but it wasn't all that fantastic lar. There was a screen frame in the floor when you walk in, then another one in the cubicle, a small screen that depends on your angle in order to view it... and the toilet wasnt decorated very nicely... so i think it was only worth 3 stars =x ...

The second show was a mass display created by the famous director - Zhang Yi Mou. However, i found it super borring ... yes the setting was really majestic as they used the really river and mountains as backdrop and the cast was 3000 people strong. However, it felt like watching a national parade mass display of lights only.... maybe we were too tired cos after awhile it jus got boring with no storyline to follow or understand what they were doing... so another boo hoo...

The third was alright as it was quite amazing to see the bird jus dive into the water and catch such a big fish... interesting but jus a short entertainment.

The forth was the night scenery which was not too bad lar... and the fifth: massage which was quite good. However overall, i think its not worth it at all....

And then, my camera jus died on the best part of the trip =x leaving us with the need to have photographic memories which i think will only last a month maybe hahah... had to rely on photo-taking service provided by the people there lor... they were lousy though and the photos turned out so-so only.,... they still boast that they are trained professionals wahahahha... like real...

Then you noe how china people behave right.... on the last day i was jus too pissed i actually shouted at them twice. Once was at the toilet cos those idiots jus cut queue lar... as if other people not urgent like that... stupid people... and the other time was when i was buying KFC at the airport... the stupid impatient man behind me kept making stupids noises to signify his impatients lar... so when i got my chicken, i jus said very loudly - " make so much noise for wat. So Noisy!" hahaha.... .say liao so shoik hahahah =P

Anyway the whole trip was jus lousy.... if you are planning to go on this holiday tour: Guilin, Yangshuo, Guangdong, Think twice!!!!

China trips

2006-06-26T15:54:00.000+08:00

Went for a China Immersion Programme (CHIP) organised by NUS chemistry department to Shanghai, Hangzhou, Nanjing and Suzhou for 3 weeks.... my groupmates were great and my roommate was lovely too. However, the trip was rather boring so din blog hahah cos too lazy too so shall jus upload some photos for remembrance =)

~me, Xin Yi, Yu Rei (aka lao ban niang), Si Qing, Mei Xuan and Wei Yong -Fantastic 6 hahah =)
We sang KTV from 12am to 6am leh!!! cos its cheap... only spent $2 for 6 hours hahahah and had a 500ml drink also hor... good right us... Super ONz man!!!

Wanna noe why wedding ring should be on the 4th finger??

2006-06-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

Why wedding ring should put on the fourth finger
(Pls follow the below step, really god make this a miracle)

1、首先大家伸出两手，将中指向下弯曲，对靠在一起，就是中指的背跟背靠在一起。
(Firstly, show your palm, centre finger bend and put together back to back).

2、然后将其他的4个手指分别指尖对碰。
(Secondly, the rest 4 fingers tips to tips).

3、在开始游戏的正题之前，请确保以下过程中，5个手指只允许一对手指分开。
(Games begin, follow the below arrangement, 5 finger but only 1 pair can split).

下面开始游戏的正题。

4、请张开你们那对大母指，大母指代表我们的父母，能够张开，每个人都会有生老病死，父母也会有一天离我们而去。
(Try to open your thumb, the thumb represent parents, it can be open cause all human does go thru sick and dead. Which is our parents will leave us one day).

5、请大家合上大母指，再张开食指，食指代表兄弟姐妹，他们也都会有自己的家世，也会离开我们。
(Pls close up your thumb, then open your second finger, the finger represent brothers and sisters, they do have their own family which is too they will leave us too).

6、请大家合上食指，再张开小母指，小母指代表子女，子女长大后，迟早有一天，会有自己的家庭生活，也会离开我们。
(Now close up your second finger, open up your little finer, this represent your children. Sooner or later they too will leave us for they got they own living to live)

7、那么，请大家合上小母指，再试着张开无名指。这个时候，大家会惊奇的发现无名指怎么也张不开，因为无名指代表夫妻，是一辈子不分离的。
(Nevertheless, close up your little finer, try to open your fourth finger which we put our wedding ring, you will be surprise to find that it cannot be open at all. Because it represent husband and wife, this whole life you will be attach to each other).

真正的爱，粘在一起后，是永生永世都分不开的。
(Real love will stick together ever and forever)

在命相学上也是这样

大姆指代表父母 (Thumb represent parents)
食指代表兄弟 (Second finger represent brothers & sisters)
中指代表自己 (Centre finger represent own self)
无名指代表配偶 (Fourth finger represent your partner)
小指代表子女 (Last finger represent your children)

Driving test woes

2006-06-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

Grrr... am so sad and irritated with myself now... .had my driving test jus now and it sucks lar. During the warm-up i was doing okie and the bbdc instructor even praised me, but then on the actual thingy i suck big time lar.... idiot.... wat cannot control clutch properly, fail to confirm safety, stop too near the front vehicle...grrr... yar so in the end i scored quite high points and had one immediate failure also bcos the stupid damn green arrow change so fast, make me gan chiong then move off in the wrong gear, engine stalled, recover too slow... and ta dah..... stuck in the middle of the junction, obstructing traffic... why?? cos red light liao..... shitz man!!!!!

Then the worse is the next test date is like Suppper LLong time lar.... cos i cannot make it for the next half a year i tot easier to book test date for next year right... Wrong... stupid dunno why suddenly so many pple want to learn how to drive and the tests dates are damn fully booked till may '07 lar... freak lar... like that how to get my license????? so pissed off with myself now!!!! GRRRRRRRRrrrrrrr

missing dance....

2006-04-26T15:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm the last leg of my final exam...last paper tmr... but i suddenly feel like blogging....

Though was suppose to study, but i on the laptop to listen to "aqua bon" (wrong choice) cos i ended up sufing the net and look through my pictures aimlessly... haha then i felt a sudden missing for dance.......haiz......those were great times man.......how we performed to so many audience, the number of times i had to put make-up in uni... wow!! i never tot i would buy make-up but now i have my own make-up and enjoying putting it ( the process, not the end-product though) haha cos i don think i look good in make-up... somehow it always make me a little wierd........maybe its my skill lar.......oh welll thought i'll upload some pics of my first and second year in dance... haha quite different!! It has been such a wonderful and enriching process...... i love pictures man!!! they are great memories!!!!!

Performance for KE bash 2005 - first outside performance!

Performance for Inter-cultural Night (aka ICN) 2004: First dance performance! - Romeo and Juliet (R&J)

Performance for ICN 2005: Bohemian dance

Dance uncensored 2005: A Taste of Love

Dance Uncensored 2006: Wushu Dance + Bohemian Dance (3rd version of costume)

Dance Uncensored 2006

2006-04-04T20:44:00.000+08:00

Hmmm been a long time since i blogged... the past few weeks had been busy busy busy!!!.... cos had a lot of dance practices for dance uncensored.

It was a good show!! Many people said our hall put up the best dances!! Jazz dance was cute and interesting, Bohemian was sexy and WuShu dance was a fresh mix of hiphop and wushu!!!
It good to hear to many good comments after working so hard, having so many late night practices, doing costumes till 3am in the morning... even dear had to help me sew my costume too =x But it all been worth it after the good performance hee =) was very pleased to hear my senior say that i improved a lot keke.... and my parents too said that i have improved and became more lady-like hahah
Keerling was very sweet and gave me a sunflower on my performance day.... ohhh the first flower i received for a performance oh!!! hehe so happy too!!!
Although i have danced bohemian for so many times, it has made my moves sharper and nicer and i am quite proud of that dance actually hahah... can shake my ass and wear sexy clothes ( or cloth) to show off my figure... wahahhaha

Oh well..... performance ended... time to catch up...

Pictures!!!!

~Wushu dance - melia and me

~Bohemian dance - me and jennifer

~ me and Fen, the cheoreo of our dances (he is so damn GOOD man!!!!)

met an aggressive aunty

2006-03-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

Just felt like blogging suddenly... Dnd organized a bash going to be held next tuesday, 6th March at Club Momo... but response was very discouraging... partly due to the day and also lots of mid-term test and project deadline clashes.... then i have not properly started my geography project and its due in 2 weeks!!!! Luckily discussed yesterday and chop chop came up with survey forms about the bazaars..... so in the afternoon, i printed the survey forms and asked the stall vendors to help me out. Luckily most of them were quite helpful and willingly did the survey. One outrightly rejected me though and i heard unhappy stories from stall vendors about other stall vendor's ugly behaviour:-

her story: She was selling "Ramy Burgers" first, but she did not come for a day and the aunty opposite her thought she had pulled out and began selling the burgers too. According the this stall vendor, the aunty has always been copying her - eg. selling of the burgers, the posters and even the method of sales: pre-packaging the burgers....

This aunty was very aggressive and so when she noticed that i was talking to the original seller for quite a while and actually doing a survey about bazaars, she followed me to the other stall and then demanded for my phone number, saying that after the thing she'll give me a call and provide me with feedbacks and yayda yayda...... Luckily i did not give her, saying that there was no need to and i refused to give.... scary woman

okie .... going for block supper now.... its BBQ!!!!

Ciao...

Pleasant Surprise

2006-02-15T15:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was i had a most pleasant surprise... ended school at 4pm and pax had already cleaned up my room for me... he saw the thing i did for him and liked it alot!! yeh!! hahah JAsmine is flying off to day for Melbourne to study dentistry today... unable to send her off so Yi leng came by to pick up a card and a box of biscuits i gave for Jas...

By the time YL came, we were late for our dinner date... took us 1 hr jus to get frm bouna vista to Pan Pacific hotel... grrr everywhere was jammed with cars going to town to celebrate v-day... our appt was at 730pm but we reached at 830pm lor... by the time we started eating it was almost 9....

The restaurant was at the 37th floor of the hotel!!! cool right!! so high up haha and pax has fear of heights but i keep encouraging him to look down ahahah... so funny to see him stand right in front of the lift door kekek...... The table was waiting for us already, decorated with rose petals against the white table cloths.... it was quite romantic!! THen while waiting for the food to come ( which took quite some time), pax suddenly handed me a bouquet of 12 roses and 12 lillies with two bears in the middle.... wow... cos he said he dont dare to hold the flowers so i tought i wouldn't receive any from him... keke yup yup so i had it kekke.... was abit embarrased to hold it at first, but later on it was quite cool to see that i had a bigger bouquet then others hahah.... However the flowers were quite heavy so along the way back my hand kinda ached ... it was like carrying dumb-bells haha... but pax still refused to take it for me ... hmpf... haha

The first few dishes at the restaurant were quite nice... the presentation was very nice, but i didn't dare to take photos of it cos it looked so high class and pple there were very prim and proper so it was abit inappropriate to misbehave... we had birds nest with crabmeat ( the crabmeat was very nice and sweet!!), roasted pork and duck (a slice each only) with scallop in salad dressing, abalone and fish maw with asparagus (yummy this was goood too!!0 but i spilled some of the sause onto the table cloth and napkin while cutting the abalone... opps... embarrassing hahah... then the last two wasnt so fantastic - fried rice with king prawn and dessert - "sunshine egg" which was actually pancake with half a peach covered in almond... as i dislike almond... so yar... only the " yolk" was eaten haha...

After dinner, we walked around b4 heading to clementi to sing KTV then went back.... pax gave me the green bag that i saw and told him i liked!! BUT i din buy cos it looked abit too big... then he still went to buy it for me hahah but i still like it alot and he say actually its not that big so... hehe i have a new green bag!!!! kekek he so sneaky, hid the present behind my cupboard so i din see it hhahah... but all in all, Thanks alot dear for making yesterday so Special!!! *muacks

The bouquet:

and now its back to school for prac.... grr the stupid TA sucks lor... don even noe what to do.. haiz and i felt so sleepy today cos slept at 4 plus yesterday... grrr... after the spectro i'm going back to take a nap... don feel like studying man.... sianz....

Interview boos

2006-02-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

Grrr... think i screwed up on my interview jus now and i haven been able to over-come it.
Was interviewing as a centenial helper for open house but when they ask the scenerio question, my mind was blank and i answered quite stupidly... grrrr... i knew i could have done much better!!! ARhg... why do i always have to screw up such things....grrr realli wanna be a part of the action man...grrrr

THen went for thai lesson jus now... keke quite fun... ended early but later got geog lect and thai again.... lesson till 8... and now dinner today!!! cos its FHD!!! grrrr.... why???? and it had to rain so heavily today... luckily i kept my clothes... k gtg for next lesson...

ciao....

sch starting...

2006-01-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Schools starting tmr... boohoo... wonder what will the new year bring..

Was watching the charity show jus now led by 'ming yi fa shi'... hmmm wat he said kind of got me thinking a little... charity work is really facing a tough time thanks to the Mr D... guess the needy are relli quite helpless that so little percentage of the money goes to them... but if we stop donating, they get even lesser which is even worse... we can't expect the poor to help the needy ya... but those who really wanna help must be clear of their conscience man!! no point being a hypocrite and die being a bad person... hmmm

holiday end le... Thailand trip was super relaxed man... no mom nagging that we wake up so late.. wat a relieve =) gtg...

ciao...

kite flying fun

2005-12-16T10:50:00.000+08:00

(the kite was too high so it can;t be seen)

Haha .... jus remembered i actually went kite flying with Pax last week and it was really fun!! Haha our $2.50 kite could actually fly so high that the cord of string was used up!! Woohoo!! U rock Ultraman!!!.... Alas while i was winding it back, through a slip of hand, the cord was release and it fly away, bounced on the surface of the river and started to sink.... dunno where would the kite land up but i'm proud of it!! Highest Kite orh!!!

Pissed oFF!! and Confused...

2005-12-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

Super pissed off liao.... why is everybody flying my kite!! Grrr... First it was SY... ask her go out so many time she also dun want then give me stupid lame excuses... damn sianz... Then my very good primary sch friend suddenly have to work then can't meet also... nevermind... then i wanted to learn Diving but can't find enuff people cos kena 'fly kite' again... grrr then my best friend also... almost dun wanna go Zouk... luckily she did... then SY today don wanna go out again... tired of asking le... am not gonna ask anymore!! Then my good uni friends also suddenly say they not going for CHIP... haiz... SUPER dissappointed lor

Then i planning to go Canada for SEP next July... but seems like alot of pple applying there as well... then heard from one lecturer that it's actually bery competitive there (Uni of Toronto) so abit apprehensive...having mixed feelings... might actually wanna go Mcgill to study.. but guess i'll still put it as 2nd choice and see how things go...

If its really super intensive... hmmm i really donnoe... guess i really have to be super determined to excel and be a career woman... always tot i could jus do leisure work and count on my husband to support me and the family... will this dream realli come true? or am i really determined enough and going to seriously put some thought into my future career and stop lazing and dreaming anymore? hmmm i really dunno... it will be a 180 degree total change of thinking... what should i do???... shld i still be naive and happy or see the hard facts of reality and accept it.... Dilema that seems obvious but somewhat painful...

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One more down...ONe to Go...

2005-11-28T12:50:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! one more paper down... think i did ok but not much time to finish... left 15 marks blank cos no time to think and don noe how to do... then got careless mistakes somemore =x shitz... thought maybe i could get an A to help pull up my grades but... Argh... haiz... hope for the best lor... A- also good... haiz... ONe more paper to go... ORgAniC Chem Here I Come!!!! u better be beaten by me k!!!

Yeh for some updates... me and him are together again... haiz... in the end still let him jus walk over and pretend nothing happened again... haiz... but we're happy together again... Thanks dear for always being here for me during this stressful exam period... really appreciate it alot... haha suddenly remembered 2 days before... i study then let u do a puzzle then u do until head grew big hahha... then ask me to do with u.... like giving tuition to a kid like that haha... sleep that time also want me to count sheeps for u haha... but surprisingly it works very well!! haha... u jus... bom... sleep liao... wiin lor... hhahha

K lar... seems like me and my best friend are going through the same thing hahah... maybe tats y we are best friends keke... K k Jia You to us!!! Gotta hit the bookks again... wish me luck for my last but most not confident paper... i MUst Make IT!!!! Damn stupid Harrison... Go and D**!!! Grrrrr..... hahah k kk Study Lo!!!

Bad Luck pls go gO GO!!!

2005-11-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

Hiaz... Yesterday i received a super good news and super bad news...

Good news: I got selected for the China Immersion Programme!!

Bad News: I got caught for plagarism by stupid lecturer Harrison Leslie... grrr.... so damn suai lor... I asked him for a consultation for more than 2 weeks then he not free then after that never even reply my e-mail sh*t him lar... then after that go find him he so fierce ask me why i go find him...no appt... he super busy.. blar blar blar... grrrrr... Then episode not over... now he checked that i copied other pple's lab report then i don noe whats gonna happen.. asshole!!! Now i don noe whats gonna happen to my organic chem man...

Looked for my dad for help then he say i always don listen to him... always don wanna care... never read questions properly... make stupid careless mistakes... its really horrible but when i think about it, i admit that i always don wanna care... why?? why am i so damn hard core LAZY!!!! its my career ahead... its my grades!!! Can't i jus be a lot more sensitive, careful and take pride in what i do!!!

But i feel that i don noe why i'm doing all this... for a good career ahead... haiz.... what if i fail.... what if next time whatever my parents had expected of me din turn into reality.... what if i failed myself... what if... what if .... shitz... oh my god... i'm scared.... tell me how?!?

Am i stupid.... i wanna be better than people... but i have to make the extra effort to be better then them. Be strong and responsible... be willing to take risks... Be a BETTER PERSON!!! i have to....

Today's spectro paper was not difficult in my opinion but i think alot of other pple would think so too and i'm so scared bcos of all the stupid careless mistakes i done... i'm not gonna do well =x so much for all the studying more carefully... in the end i still missed out on so many details... in the end i'm still the same as the rest... wat makes me different? and A student.... why cant i be like wan jun, so nice to everyone, so meticulous.... haiz... guess its different personality but i have to LEARN!!!!!

KAMPETEI CHARMAINE TAN!!!
YOU ROCK GIRL!!!!!
LOVE URSELF K!!! -u learnt it frm GEK1006... u better apply it!!!

GOOD LUCK PLEASE COME!!!

heartbreak is Painful

2005-11-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry dear... wat have i done... it hurts... it really does.... and its the first time tears keep falling whenever i think of u... but did i do right.... i hope i made the right choice... i jus another practical person and we wont be happpy in the long run perhaps... i really hope ur wound will heal soon... i knoe its even more difficult for u. Pls try... pls do not mourn ur sorrow alone... seeing u like this pains me and i jus can't bear but run back into ur arms... but it will happen again... so should we jus do it once and for all.... Thanks for always being so sweet and gentle to me. You're not lousy at all!! Really!! its jus that i guess i want a better future and i'm afraid i can't accept u as time goes by.... I love u dear

StreSSed, tiRed.. Mixed...

2005-11-03T01:20:00.000+08:00

What is Happening to me.. Argh!!! I hate myself... starting to skip lecture, jus feel like lazing in bed and not do anything when there is a test today, consultation for my practical, tons of overdue homework and an incomplete midi, not forgetting the big EXAMS!!!!

I better buck up man or i'm screwed. i HATE it!! Don i have nicer more interesting things to write other then these mundane, mind-boggling put ever-present nagging feeling...arrrrrhhhh
But there is something sweet to share... My dad specially brought to hostel a bowl of aloe vera and my mom made 'huat gui'... wow it was super YUMMY!!!

Jus hope things will be fine and smooth flowing soon and i can get back on track and stop being lazy... hope i won screw the exams... hope i can earn $$ during the hols... hope i can learn to drive soon... hope i can go for the china immersion... hope everything good will happen =) haha and maybe learn how to decorate my blog =P