Monday, November 28, 2005
Yeah!!! one more paper down... think i did ok but not much time to finish... left 15 marks blank cos no time to think and don noe how to do... then got careless mistakes somemore =x shitz... thought maybe i could get an A to help pull up my grades but... Argh... haiz... hope for the best lor... A- also good... haiz... ONe more paper to go... ORgAniC Chem Here I Come!!!! u better be beaten by me k!!!
Yeh for some updates... me and him are together again... haiz... in the end still let him jus walk over and pretend nothing happened again... haiz... but we're happy together again... Thanks dear for always being here for me during this stressful exam period... really appreciate it alot... haha suddenly remembered 2 days before... i study then let u do a puzzle then u do until head grew big hahha... then ask me to do with u.... like giving tuition to a kid like that haha... sleep that time also want me to count sheeps for u haha... but surprisingly it works very well!! haha... u jus... bom... sleep liao... wiin lor... hhahha
K lar... seems like me and my best friend are going through the same thing hahah... maybe tats y we are best friends keke... K k Jia You to us!!! Gotta hit the bookks again... wish me luck for my last but most not confident paper... i MUst Make IT!!!! Damn stupid Harrison... Go and D**!!! Grrrrr..... hahah k kk Study Lo!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:50 pm
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Hiaz... Yesterday i received a super good news and super bad news... Good news: I got selected for the China Immersion Programme!! Bad News: I got caught for plagarism by stupid lecturer Harrison Leslie... grrr.... so damn suai lor... I asked him for a consultation for more than 2 weeks then he not free then after that never even reply my e-mail sh*t him lar... then after that go find him he so fierce ask me why i go find him...no appt... he super busy.. blar blar blar... grrrrr... Then episode not over... now he checked that i copied other pple's lab report then i don noe whats gonna happen.. asshole!!! Now i don noe whats gonna happen to my organic chem man...
Looked for my dad for help then he say i always don listen to him... always don wanna care... never read questions properly... make stupid careless mistakes... its really horrible but when i think about it, i admit that i always don wanna care... why?? why am i so damn hard core LAZY!!!! its my career ahead... its my grades!!! Can't i jus be a lot more sensitive, careful and take pride in what i do!!!
But i feel that i don noe why i'm doing all this... for a good career ahead... haiz.... what if i fail.... what if next time whatever my parents had expected of me din turn into reality.... what if i failed myself... what if... what if .... shitz... oh my god... i'm scared.... tell me how?!?
Am i stupid.... i wanna be better than people... but i have to make the extra effort to be better then them. Be strong and responsible... be willing to take risks... Be a BETTER PERSON!!! i have to....
Today's spectro paper was not difficult in my opinion but i think alot of other pple would think so too and i'm so scared bcos of all the stupid careless mistakes i done... i'm not gonna do well =x so much for all the studying more carefully... in the end i still missed out on so many details... in the end i'm still the same as the rest... wat makes me different? and A student.... why cant i be like wan jun, so nice to everyone, so meticulous.... haiz... guess its different personality but i have to LEARN!!!!!
KAMPETEI CHARMAINE TAN!!!
YOU ROCK GIRL!!!!!
LOVE URSELF K!!! -u learnt it frm GEK1006... u better apply it!!!
GOOD LUCK PLEASE COME!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:11 pm
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
I'm so sorry dear... wat have i done... it hurts... it really does.... and its the first time tears keep falling whenever i think of u... but did i do right.... i hope i made the right choice... i jus another practical person and we wont be happpy in the long run perhaps... i really hope ur wound will heal soon... i knoe its even more difficult for u. Pls try... pls do not mourn ur sorrow alone... seeing u like this pains me and i jus can't bear but run back into ur arms... but it will happen again... so should we jus do it once and for all.... Thanks for always being so sweet and gentle to me. You're not lousy at all!! Really!! its jus that i guess i want a better future and i'm afraid i can't accept u as time goes by.... I love u dear
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:37 pm
Thursday, November 03, 2005
What is Happening to me.. Argh!!! I hate myself... starting to skip lecture, jus feel like lazing in bed and not do anything when there is a test today, consultation for my practical, tons of overdue homework and an incomplete midi, not forgetting the big EXAMS!!!!
I better buck up man or i'm screwed. i HATE it!! Don i have nicer more interesting things to write other then these mundane, mind-boggling put ever-present nagging feeling...arrrrrhhhh
But there is something sweet to share... My dad specially brought to hostel a bowl of aloe vera and my mom made 'huat gui'... wow it was super YUMMY!!!
Jus hope things will be fine and smooth flowing soon and i can get back on track and stop being lazy... hope i won screw the exams... hope i can earn $$ during the hols... hope i can learn to drive soon... hope i can go for the china immersion... hope everything good will happen =) haha and maybe learn how to decorate my blog =P
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:20 am
