Monday, February 26, 2007
~The new ferrari at my house. Super chio right?!!
Had a rough day today... so demoralised....
The chinese new year week went past so fast... din even study half of what i wanted to and its a new week again... =x Had practical today... i tot inorganic would be better then organic... wrong! It was so stressful lor... everybody on my bench did so fast... all so zai... and i had to wait so long for my apparatus to dry... argh!! nevermind... it refuse to dry and when i opened the oven, it rolled out and broke lar.. broke 2 somemore =x haiz... so sh*ty...grrr.... Then i went to do my UV spectro and came out forgot to wear my goggles...kena caught by the proff... so suai right... i was wearing the whole day lor.. then towards the end, going to pack up liao then bamm! Sucks lar... then my results were also very out... in the end have to do it again next week.... oh my god! tell me lar... why i so suai.........
Yesterday went to Wen Hui's house also din have a good time... its also the first time i went to someone's house for steamboat and CNY celebration then in the end must pay $$ one lor... its not Wen Hui's fault... jus some "act smart" person who thinks that we should not go to somebody's house to eat for free and still get ang poh.... come on lar.. its CNY leh... i think paying for ur meal is an insult to the family lar... WTH... din really have a good time too... though i knew most of the people there, but somehow i felt sad... cos KL forgot abt me... maybe think i don belong to this clik of friends or got sick of calling me so i don even noe if i was invited or not... anyway i promised CP i'll go so in the end i thick skin and jus went lor.. but jus felt a little wierd... not left out or anything... but jus not fun lor... maybe its me lar... luckily there was CP there and Jason too... haiz.... wat happen to lasting friendships..... even Jason is also drifting further... though he calls me and talks to me... but mostly he asks me things like wat movies are nice, where to get wat kind of present for his gf and stuff... helping his gf by getting pple to help her do survey.... i don feel like i'm remembered as a friend, rather somebody to help him help his gf lor... i'm so sick of that... so much so that i dont even wanna talk to him on the phone anymore...
maybe i'm having problems myself... always looking at pple and laughing behind their backs, thinking abt nasty or sarcastic thoughts....Karma! i must go to the temple to pray for forgiveness and hope my suai-ness will be gone!!
Happy tot to end the post~! Tot i would be having dinner alone then i saw Sharon and Fen jus starting to eat so i dont have to eat anymore yeah! Then don look so lonely anymore also....
Come to think of it... i have been sick very frequently this past month... sore throat, cough, fever twice in a month, etc.... oh my god... i was never that weak! i think it must be breathing in all the horrible stuff from the chem lab and dehydrating when doing practicals cos u'll jus forget to eat and drink once u start at 10am... all the way until 5 plus lor.... I Dont wanna work in the Lab next time!!!!! Argh......
CNY at Yi leng's house... super shiok! The steamboat got 2 cans of abalone and lots of scallops and even sea cucumber lor!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:26 pm
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Had a test yesterday.... sucks... there was negative marking and i realise i made so many mistakes. Really demoralised =x and then my tuition kid keeps changing the time slot... so irritating... should i jus said i wasn't free today then no need to go le=x
lots of work left undone and piling up.... slacking too much but no mood to study... then dance is also taking up alot of time and the dance steps are not very fun... so sian.... wat is happening?!?
he bought me dim sum and ice-cream yesterday. It was yummy! but why theres no special feeling anymore?? am i too tired or is something really going wrong....?????
i hate my laziness, i hate my stupidness, i hate my rashness, is there anything i like abt myself?? not at the moment.....
haiz.....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:42 am
Monday, February 05, 2007
I'm sick... for 3 days... chinese doc said i did not drink enough water... now i'm feeling pain in both my kidneys, feel like vomitting after drinking water or eating...and constantly feeling hungry but no appetite to eat... its terrible!
I feel miserable too! ... lab sucked today... didn't even know wat i was doing =x and i failed my driving test again.... why is everything not going well for me... arh!!! why!!!! ggRRRRRRR
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:25 pm
