Monday, July 23, 2012
6 months into my job... i feel that i like talking to people but i like listening to people talk more. I realise my communication skills suck and i don't know what to say to people.. this makes me less motivated doing sales as i go along.. i feel that i can still try to talk myself into working everyday but i won't make it as a sales manager... i probably need something more hands-on.. something that talks less but nonetheless not an office job... job in a lab sounds ideal?
Been thinking about it but the pay sucks! then i was given the idea to do a phD.. hmmm sounds really interesting and good but then i have to go overseas for at least a year and pax is not happy about it.. then today i found out that the pay is pathetic too... so if i were to persue my phD, it would be pathetic for the next 4 years.. no bonus, no incentives and no benefits... can i really accept all that? considering i have a house to pay in 2 years time and i hope to get married and have kids.. it all will happen in this 4 year window... so how? But if i were to take on a job as a lab officer, i may be able to get benefits and bonus but the pay will be quite low and not much chances of a career progression after that...
Actually i don't really care about career progression, cause all i want is a good pay. But that seems to come hand in hand, unless it is a sales job where everything is about commision... grr..i don't know how to decide... i'm afraid i can't do a phD though the topic seems interesting... i don't dread my job now but i dont think i can last more than 2 years.. and if i dont think of alternatives now.. it may be too late to try other stuff soon... haiz... why are life choices so difficult.. or maybe i'm afraid to accept failure.. but now i'm more aftraid to try new things i think because i'm too lazy and always giving up... thats my Biggest Problem!!!
I need a sabatical!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
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