Friday, October 26, 2007
Today i went out with him again... i dunno what to do...
Feel like talking to someone... but dunno what to talk about and who to talk too...
Read through his letter again and felt very sad.... will i be able to meet another person who loves me like he does?
Seeing him sad jus now, i din noe what to do.... but i must be strong and stand my ground. I will get used to live without him right?
He will get better too right?
My eyes feel sour.... no mood.... no mood....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:42 am
Friday, October 19, 2007
Breaking up is not easy.
I thought i didnt care... i thought i would be able to get over it easily. I was wrong.
Friends told me the i had expected it coming so i shouldn't feel so sad. Really?? for those who said that, i think you havent' been in a relationship before. Please don't say that to me. It makes me feel worse.
I miss him.... i long to see his sms.... i long to talk to him... yet i can't...
yes, even though i was the one who wanted the split... and i don't regret my decision... but it'll take some time for me to get back on my feet.... for my tears to stop rolling down everytime i think of him...
I need some time....
For those who were genuinely concerned about me. Thanks very much.
For those who are celebrating for me that i did it at last... well you don't have to show that you're happy for me... cos thats not what i need....
Really thanks my friends, for showing me all your concerns. I really appreciate it. Really.
Wonder how is he coping.... is he resisting the urge to call me jus like wat i'm going through right now?
I have to keep my distance though....at least for now..... we will still be good friends. I wish you all the best and to find happiness soon again =)
miss u....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:22 am
Thursday, October 18, 2007
We broked up amicably on 16th Oct.
Exactly 3yrs 04 months of sweet dating.
It was hard. It was sad. But i'll pull through.
He was really nice till the end of it. There was no argument, no unhappiness. It started with a misunderstanding that made me angry... then i was sad and started to think alot more... this was not what i want in future.... since i was sad, might as well let it be once and for all.... hence i told him what i thought.
At first he was reluctant.... kept saying he still loves me and that everything he did he always had me in mind. We did it over sms which was good. It gives us time to think through what we want. So at last he respected my decision as he did not want me to be hurt over and over again when this topic comes up. So like that, we broke up amicably.
I really wanna thank him for all the great memories and love he showered on me. Its been hard. but we'll manage through this period with each others help right.
I din feel like going to school the next day. Went out with him instead.
We went to the Totoise and Turtle museum in Chinese garden. It was a quiet and serence place. We had quite a lot of fun feeding the totoises and fishes. It was a nice outing together. There was no ackwardness. we jus went back to being good friends naturally. It was jus us but without the holding hands and hugging.
I'll miss your hugs dear, ur calls, ur smses, ur hand-made cards...... Take care and may both of us live happily and find happiness.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:24 am
Monday, October 08, 2007
I'm irritated....
Not because its ur fault.... its me....
when will i have the courage to tell u to go our separate ways..... when???
i'm frustrated to keep thinking we still can go on.... no..... its not right....
when will you see that something is not right anymore..... when.....
Arhggg........
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:39 pm
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Happy things:
1) Kaixin and i had a nice dinner and chat on my bdae. Its really enjoyable to talk to her for so long all over again. I'm glad we still hold on strong to our friendship even though we've changed.... somehow cai ping got lost....
2) Weichang called me all the way from UK to wish me Happy Birthday!! and i mistook him for someone else =x so touched though =)
3) My friends at HSA celebrated my birthday for me at a KTV pub.... there was a small hiccup as they made our booking on the wrong day but all in all we still got to sing so it was not too bad. and they got me a very nice Addidas watch!
Sad things:
1) My stupid damn experiment failed at the last stage, even after repeating a second time. It took me 1 month to go that far.... Now i have to do all over from scratch again... grrrr
2) I broke a few glasswares over the past 3 days i was in lab.... first was my glass schlenk flask which busrt cos i pump too much Nitrogen in. The next day i broke the pump connection becos i forgot to clip it. It flew out due to pressure again and swing against the metal cabinet door and broke.... Today i broke a separating funnel cos i put it beside the sink to take a brush and it rolled into the sink and broke.... grrr....
3) The stupid person whom i'm pairing up with for the econs experiment is not cooperating....
4) Just feeling down......
Watched shoot-em-up jus now... its was a very exaggerating plot..... disappointing.....
Reminder to me
*Always look on the bright side of life!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:54 am
