Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Jus got the news from HR that i won't be getting the sales position afterall... actually i am very disappointed, since i've been quite psyched up ever since the walkabout the Dennis (the product specialist) where i actually felt damn good walking around the hospital and actually going into the operating theatre to witness a colon operation... tiring as it may be to have to walk around and stand for long hours... but i miss the sense of achievement or purpose of the things you need to do as a product specialist... 6 months into the role of business project executive and i have not found anything i liked about it... been complaining much more in these 6 months then in my 2.5yrs at 1st base. Job scope sucks... management sucks... just felt super bored and waste of time doing mundane things like filing and updating of excel spreadsheets everyday.
I need to know what i want to do, but i really don't know... just when i thought maybe i should go back to sales... they don't want me but its oki... i will find another one soon... but do i really want to go back? or should i still around for awhile longer... my feeling says to leave cos i bear too much negativity in this role... how???
On a lighter note, we finally chose our HDB on 7th Oct... was aiming for the ninth floor... but finally on the day of selection, it was taken and so we had to settle for the seventh floor. Quite excited about the location and looking forward to seeing the completed project! Really hope he can find a better paying job too so that we can afford better things for our house.. now i dont even dare dream about a wedding... and everytime i bring out a $$ issue... its seems so out of reach... super frustrated that i have to bear with it or keep thinking how to earn more and he seems to be stagnant... grrr........
FRUSTRATION!!!!!! Can't wait for 2011 to end and looking forward to a much better 2012 i hope!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
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