Saturday, November 19, 2005
Hiaz... Yesterday i received a super good news and super bad news... Good news: I got selected for the China Immersion Programme!! Bad News: I got caught for plagarism by stupid lecturer Harrison Leslie... grrr.... so damn suai lor... I asked him for a consultation for more than 2 weeks then he not free then after that never even reply my e-mail sh*t him lar... then after that go find him he so fierce ask me why i go find him...no appt... he super busy.. blar blar blar... grrrrr... Then episode not over... now he checked that i copied other pple's lab report then i don noe whats gonna happen.. asshole!!! Now i don noe whats gonna happen to my organic chem man...
Looked for my dad for help then he say i always don listen to him... always don wanna care... never read questions properly... make stupid careless mistakes... its really horrible but when i think about it, i admit that i always don wanna care... why?? why am i so damn hard core LAZY!!!! its my career ahead... its my grades!!! Can't i jus be a lot more sensitive, careful and take pride in what i do!!!
But i feel that i don noe why i'm doing all this... for a good career ahead... haiz.... what if i fail.... what if next time whatever my parents had expected of me din turn into reality.... what if i failed myself... what if... what if .... shitz... oh my god... i'm scared.... tell me how?!?
Am i stupid.... i wanna be better than people... but i have to make the extra effort to be better then them. Be strong and responsible... be willing to take risks... Be a BETTER PERSON!!! i have to....
Today's spectro paper was not difficult in my opinion but i think alot of other pple would think so too and i'm so scared bcos of all the stupid careless mistakes i done... i'm not gonna do well =x so much for all the studying more carefully... in the end i still missed out on so many details... in the end i'm still the same as the rest... wat makes me different? and A student.... why cant i be like wan jun, so nice to everyone, so meticulous.... haiz... guess its different personality but i have to LEARN!!!!!
KAMPETEI CHARMAINE TAN!!!
YOU ROCK GIRL!!!!!
LOVE URSELF K!!! -u learnt it frm GEK1006... u better apply it!!!
GOOD LUCK PLEASE COME!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
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